zzzzz...

I need to sleep. But i can't.
I need to pee. But i'm too scared.
I need to wake up in a few hours time. But i don't want.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri yall.

Be careful who you do cause karma comes back around

You know, sometimes we just get so caught up with how we feel that we tend to ignore someone's else's feelings. Just because you are so psyched about someone/something, doesn't mean your friend is in the mood to listen to that. Or when you are so depressed with your so-called pathetic life, your friend may have had a terrific day and don't want to entertain you.

But we still do. We still entertain. Or try to at the very least. Maybe coz we are obliged to. Maybe coz that's what friends are supposed to do. To be there to listen anytime anywhere.

But it doesn't hurt to be more tactful the next time round right?

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Sometimes we feel like we are in this whirlpool that we can't get out from. You try to get out and find some solutions, but all you know is that you are still stuck at square one. And when that happens and you don't know what else to do, we resort to praying to God.

We think that God may not want to answer our prayers coz we know that we haven't been the most pious person ever. But we later realise that God is unlike human and God will help His creations no matter what.

Yesterday, i hope for a miracle. For something to just happen according to my way. And if i can't get that, then all i hope for is a solution to help me escape from this misery. And that solution did come.

Thank you Amirah.

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Yes, this isn't what i've been hoping for. But if it can get me somewhere, then i really don't mind compromising.

Nambutchy

Have you ever felt that everything that is going to happen in the future is solely dependent on you? Like it's you who will either make it work or let it fall apart? And you feel all alone and scared? And you can't turn to anybody for help coz you know nobody can provide any anyway?

Have you ever felt that? HAVE YOU EVER!!

Sigh, it sucks right?

Really really nambutchy-ed up right now *inside joke*. I need to breathe. Ok, breathing breathing...NOT HELPING!

Hopefully those few hours that i'm going to spend with Rachel later will make me forget about all this shit for awhile. And maybe after that i can calmly think all these through.

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I did alot of things at work today. Alot. Such a busy day. Here's the list of things that i did just now.

1. Sms people like crazy and reply to them almost instantly.
2. Eating sushi and drinking bubble tea.
3. Reading storybook and listening to music.
4. And of course, occasionally serve those occasional customers!

Customers at West Coast Plaza only come like once every 15-20minutes and i have NO complaints regarding that. Really, i'm totally cool about that!

People who are reading sad love stories, should try reading while listening to songs from Westlife old album. You know, the album with "Unbreakable" and "Queen of My Heart"?? Yeah, that one. Coz the songs really fit the mood of the story and you will feel that you are actually watching some sad movie.

Emotional.

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Starbucks at West Coast Plaza is giving out free drinks later from 5pm-7pm. Just a shout out, in case some people care.

My Desi Girl, My Desi Girl Girl Girl Girl Girl

Work was incredibly peaceful today, and i have no complaints against that.

I was posted to West Coast Plaza (used to be Ginza Plaza) for the rest of the week. I was warned that it was going to be extremely boring there coz there will not be many customers like how we have in Raffles City. Well, that was true alright, and i really have no problem about that.

I spent the day reading my book and it's finishing now, so i can bring another book tomorrow, hah. There are customers occasionally and funny enough, i treated them way way better than how i treat some of the customers back at RC.

Apparently sales was way way better than usual. And Uncle Donald thank me for that. Okay...

I seriously thought i was going to pull my hair out or bang my head against the wall due to boredom but i think i handled today pretty well. Time moved relatively steady and before long i was out of there.

And i made some new friends with our fellow neighbours there.

I can so do this for the rest of the week :)

Come to think of it, West Coast Plaza is kinda cool you know. The building is modern and all, there are alot of shops, it's near my house and the fact that it's not crowded might just make it my newfound hang out place. Haha.

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I'm just hanging onto this one thread. I'm not opening myself to other possibilities coz i don't want things to happen differently. I just want this, and that's it.

Yes, there is a chance that it might not happen according to my wishes but we'll worry about that later.

I need this to work out for me.

Rejoice throw your arms in the air

Once again, Happy Birthday Midah!

Midah, Hari and i went to watch the funniest movie ever today - Dostana. Ok, i'm trying to give like a really unbiased review here. So, yes the movie is hilarious. You will laugh like 90% out of the whole movie. And trust me, you won't be the only one, you will have everybody else in the cinema laughing with you :)

Awesome awesome comic timing. The cast was perfect, especially Abhishek, John, Priyanka, Boman and Kirron :)

Everybody should go and watch it. You don't have to be a Hindi movie addict to enjoy it. But there are some scenes that are like linked to previous of Karan Johar's movies, so only people who have watched those movies will understand those scenes.

Although i got cheated by the false synopsis, i must say there wouldn't have been a better ending, though i never see that coming.

All in all, i will give 2 thumbs up and 2 big toes up for Dostana :)

After movie, we went to eat and dig secrets from Hari. I've never really know this guy on a personal level before and i just found out that he's actually pretty cool. And thank you for driving us to supper and home.

I'm glad you enjoyed your birthday. Rest well and chiong for your exams! We'll hopefully have the hindi movie marathon soon. And i hope this time it will really happen, lol.

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Rachel Lim Pei Rong is back in town! Omg, i miss that girl so much! Haha i'm already excited just by typing this down, lol.

So meet up and movie and library on thursday! Can hardly wait :)

BURN!!

I'm currently nursing this nasty burn that i got at work.

Imagine skin in contact with metal that is at 200°C. Ouch.

So now i have 3 scars that may be permanent. Ugly! Well, 3 scars in a year...I'll say not bad actually, lol.

There's a thousand words that i could say, to make you come home

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY MIDAH!!!
Enjoy your last teenage year :)

I can't wait for movie later! And you better like the present.

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When we know that we are going to move on to a new phase in life, we tend to promise ourselves that we will never change. We tell ourselves that we will always keep in touch with our close friends.

But when we are finally in that new phase, sometimes it's difficult to keep those promises. It's not that we don't want to, sometimes we are just caught up with our new life that we can't pause and breathe and think back to what we promise and who we promise those things to.

We are all getting older, slowly moving into adulthood. You and your friends will move to different colleges and do different things. I don't mind that, coz new experience means fun. But for me, it's nice to know that i have some people with me through all this havoc.

To my few close friends, i really hope that there will never be a time when we can manage just fine in our lives, without the support of the other party.

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I think i have a thing for attractive married men. Yes, they are good-looking, but the fact that they are married makes it all more fun actually.

And i secretly (not that it's a secret anymore now) finds pleasure in rejecting customers. I have no idea why. I like "killing" the waffle machine and i like to tell people who just got into the shop that we are closed.

I'm complex, we all know that.