goodbye my lover, goodbye my friend

time and time again,

i give more than a few harsh words.

time and time again,
someone gets hurt.

time and time again,
i'm the "bad" friend.
time and time again,
it's my fault till the end.

time and time again,
i'm the one to be blamed.
time and time again,
things won't ever be the same.

time and time again,
i'll lose someone.
time and time again,
i'll start blaming myself.

time and time again,
i act as if i'm tough.
time and time again,
i cry when no one's around.

I can't believe i was that stupid. So stupid to make that mistake. Me, the person who has been trying to protect this whole thing, just blew it. BLEW IT! Me! How can i be so stupid. Stupid. Stoo-peed!

Stupid.

I'm still not done. Stupidstupidstupidstupidstupid! Ugh, this is so frustrating.

till then...