I like my beat fast, and my bass down low

I don't know why introducing them bothered me so much. Why should it right? I guess that's just one of my issues. Am I going to deal with it? I don't think so. People just have to accept that I guess.

I'm just so surprised that this whole time I thought I was cool with something, but actually deep down I was nowhere near cool.

And I'm more vulgar now. I am alot of things that I was never before people. People need to grasp the idea that I'm not the same person as I was a year back. People change all the bloody time. But when it comes to me, somehow it's a problem.

Get a grip.

Messed Up

He's pure danger. Period.

But he is so bloody attractive man. Fuck. And he coming on strong is seriously not helping. I seriously think one weak moment from my end will change everything.

Aahhh. Something's wrong with me. I want someone whom I shouldn't have. And then there is that safe boy who asks me out for a simple movie date and dinner and I rejected him - four times in a week.

I'm seriously messed up.

Like A G6

I probably just had the best dance session ever. Great choreograhy man. Obviously great choreographer too ;) since I picked up the dance steps relatively fast.

Awesome man. I can't wait for the next session ;)

Where it all begins

For the first time ever, I went to Malabar Mosque to celebrate my Eid. I went there with Tas since Musa is a volunteer there. For many years, I've stopped going to the mosque, getting all excited to see sheep (we live in Singapore afterall) and getting all anxious in seeing them getting slaughtered.

And when I was finally there, I got all excited and anxious all over again, like I was a 9 years old kid, seeing it for the very first time.

Is it me or do goats actually scream like human beings? It's like they are really crying for help seriously. I can never have the guts to slaughter one man. There were many incidents when I thought that Musa might get kicked by a goat when he was trying to catch one. But apparently such things never happen, according to him.

Earlier this week, when I told my Miko and Joseph about what Hari Raya Haji was all about, they got grossed out, mostly because they thought it was cruel of us to "kill" the animals. But I said that the meat actually goes to the poor people actually. And like hello, it's not like you guys are vegetarians anyways. You guys eat meat as well, and God knows how those animals were killed. I heard from a Chinese auntie before that there are cases where the animals got dragged till they die.

The only difference is that I got to see it first hand. And this is probably the nicest way to kill an animal, by slaughtering them. Apparently, it is the fastest and the least painful. You guys, on the other hand, just eat the meat that's on your plate, totally clueless on how that meat ended up there in the first place.

Sometimes we don't think before we speak. Then either we hurt someone else's feelings, or we look like total fools.

Yippee

Mission accomplished. My Economics assignment, and probably my last assignment for a really long time, is finally done :)

Time to watch Glee!

"Hey Shims" :)

Oh I need to stop digressing and focus on my Economics assignment. Why can't the universe understand that the entire reason on why I freaking screwed up my A-levels is because of this subject! It's like the universe wants the history to repeat itself or something. Bummer.

And I desperately need to stop thinking about you. Dreaming about you. Imagining that I can touch you. Imagining your cologne all while watching Housefull. Sucks man. Not cool.

I can't let myself get attached. Not bf-gf attached, but emotionally attached to anyone right now. I can't afford that. I must protect myself and my oh so fragile heart.

Tas said that explains why I have a tough front. I told her that I don't fall easily for anyone, but when I fall, I fall hard. And I can't let that happen, no matter how nice you smell, no matter how much I wanna be with you, no matter how charming you can be (despite you being such an irritant most of the time actually).

Ok shit. I think I've already fallen for him. It explains the entire post right? Shit, I'm screwed.

Outta Your Mind

OMG! Amazing :)

Yang Terindah

I will include this in my list of wedding songs :)

And I'm back!

For a while, I forgot I have a dead blog. Until I watched I Hate Luv Storys and realised how much I love to do movie reviews.

Unfortunately, I didn't like it as much as I wanted to. It's just the predictable storyline and corny dialogues. After a specific amount of intake, I just want to roll my eyes and gag.

By far, my most painful experience of watching a Hindi movie at the cinema. Sad, extremely sad.



And here's a photo of Sameer Dattani. Not the best actor out there, but OMG he looks so much like Zayed Khan, it is so freaky!


Now, I need to watch a good new Hindi movie soon so that that I can get over my not-so-nice experience yesterday.

I am now looking forward to We Are Family and Milenge Milenge.

We Are Family

I couldn't find an official poster, but this is the cast and I've watched the trailer and it looked promising.

Milenge Milenge

Nothing can ever beat Jab We Met, but this is probably the last time I will ever see this pairing.

Now. Matthew Morrison. So I found this on http://www.worldofjustin.com/.

"Matthew Morrison has described his upcoming solo album. The Glee star signed a record deal earlier this yeat and is now working on his first LP. When asked what fans can expect from his debut, Morrison revealed: "I kind of call it a Bublake - it's a cross between Michael Buble and Justin Timberlake."

Matthew then went on to describe what kind of musical styles we'll be hearing on the currently untitled CD. "It's going to be me and a big orchestra, but beats infused so I can shake my money maker." he joked."

OMG, I'm curious already.

Back To The Start

I never knew Cheryl was Ashley Cole's ex-wife. I thought it was just a coincidence that they had the same surname.

Don't Stop, Make It Pop

Have you ever thought that when you take a bus to go somewhere, somehow that journey always seems longer than the journey to go home?

I've always experienced that and today I've found the reason why. Feels like a new revelation man. Simple - when you are going home, the traffic is usually so much smoother! Tada.

Ok, now it's time for random quotes that I've heard all week from my customers.
1) "1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, YET."

2) "I'm very busy today. Today is my Bird Day."

3) "No, no, I'm not interesting."
(I think he meant "interested".)

4) "What is payment teriyaki?"
(He meant "payment hierachy".)

5) Customer: My IC number is Sxxxxxxx-"ack-sh"
Julie: You mean, X for Xtra?
Customer: No, "ack-sh" for Holland.

Oh customers, what would I do without you guys?

Take a Chance, Make a Change, and Breakaway

Meeting up with Midah and Farhan makes me realise that we are all getting older. Nowadays, when we meet up, we have all these intense conversations going out. Sometimes it becomes a really heated debate, mostly because Farhan never seems to see the world as how Midah and I see it.

But my point is, we never used to talk about those kind of topics. Frankly speaking, I can't remember what we used to talk about, but our topics were never as "adult" as how they are now.

Part of me freaks out abit cause we are adults now. Yeah man, adults! "Adults" probably means responsibility, work and eventually marriage and probably kids. But the scariest bit is the uncertainty of how things are going to turn out in the future.

Atleast when we were in school, there was nothing much to fear. You go to school, try to get good grades, you go home at the end of the day and have your parents to depend on. We can't stay the same now. There will come a time when my parents may need to depend on me. And I surely hope that I will independent enough to take care of them then.

Our intense debate involves shooting random questions at one another as well, asking how would you react in a certain situation. All of us, being strong-headed in our own rights, usually have our own opinions.

But when I think about it, there is never a yes or a no answer to a question, when that situation has never happened to you. Like, would you leave your spouse if he/she cheated on you? I would say, theoretically, definite yes. But see, you can never be certain until you are really experiencing it.

So that brought me to think. I probably have disagreed with alot of decisions that people around me have made. And when you disagree, you have this tendency to judge as well. But I guess, it's not fair. You don't know what that person is going through, so you probably have no right to say much anyways.

I don't think adulthood is going to be easy, but I just want to take one day at a time. Sometimes I wish, when things get hard, I can break out into a song or something (ok, I'm extremely addicted to Glee now, so that explains).

But if my life was a musical, it will be so much fun. We'll get to sing and dance and change into pretty costumes. Sounds like fun to me.

Waiting For The World To Change

Once upon a (really long) time ago, I used to come online every night - chatting with friends, cracking ourselves till we see the morning light (ok, not really) and watching Youtube videos till late night.

Now, not so. I used to think I was addicted to MSN. It's like I need to chat with someone every other night, or I'll feel incomplete. Now, I feel extremely grateful if I can watch atleast one favourite tv show before I go to bed every night.

It's like I don't want to know what is going on around me. I don't read up on Justin/Vivek/Imran anymore. I don't talk to my friends as often anymore, but that's also because everybody's busy.

It's like as if I'm happy stuck in my own bubble, doing my own little thing.

Recently, I bumped into a friend in the MRT. Usually, I might have asked her how she's doing, bla bla bla...but I didn't. When I thought about it, I realised, I don't care what's going on in her life. Whether she is sick or whether she's having exams soon, whatever.
I don't care.

I guess it gets to a point where I'm just too tired (or lazy) to reach out anymore. Because sometimes it's not reciprocated, you know? So after awhile, you just stopped.

Or sometimes, you are just waiting for someone else to reach out to you instead, who knows?

Puke My Guts Out

I went to watch the 55th Filmfare Awards last week and I must say I was left slightly disappointed. I think SRK and Saif were still quite funny, rude and cheap during some parts (which was the whole point of getting them to host btw), but I just think they had been better.

That's why I watched bits of the previous shows today and yes, I still laughed at the same old jokes - like when Jadoo and Preity got married, why couldn't Jadoo perform on their first night?

Good times, good times.

And those Kantaben moments, haha hilarious.

Oh, Shahid performed btw. But he was actually playing a tribute to MJ.

Hold up, wait a minute. Didn't MJ like passed away almost half a year ago or something?? And isn't Filmfare Awards supposed to be a platform to celebrate their local talent??

So why was there a need to play a tribute to MJ?? Yes Shahid, we get it, you are an awesome dancer. But do a tribute to one of the Bollywood legends or something!

Haiya, show off la tu...

But he's still as cute as ever. That's why I bought the latest edition of Filmfare magazine cause he's on it. Haha as simple as that. Thanks Farhana :)

And then, there's Cinta Ixora. I swear their marketing strategy is spectacular. They must have thought "Let's just get good-looking actors, who cares if they can act or not, because ratings will still be high anyways".

And dammit, it's bloody working! On me atleast.

I gotta admit, if it was a different cast, especially for Syarif's and Haizad's parts, I wouldn't follow this show as religiously.

And oklah, the drama is quite entertaining. But it's more like WTF entertaining, cause that's what goes through my mind most of the time. Or if not, I will be cringing and gagging cause Syarif is holding that Bloody Bat's hand. Or laughing at Haizad for trying to be creepy.

I actually hope that the drama won't end anytime soon. But since Suria is showing it twice a week, I doubt so now.

Lastly, Happy 22nd Wedding Anniversary to my parents. Here's to an everlasting marriage and a happy family. Cheers :)

Let The Rain Fall Down

I watched My Name Is Khan yesterday, after procrastinating for so long, due to money and exams issue. But now I'm free and I can watch movies and more movies :D

I like the movie very much and I actually want to watch it again.



Inititally, I thought what is up with Bollywood and their "Islam is not a terrorist religion" issue?? They had 2 movies precedent to this, which are New York and Kurbaan, so I was skeptical about this movie.



But it turned out different that the other 2 movies. It sorta portrayed Islam in a much positive light that the other 2 movies. I think people should watch it, especially the non-Muslims.



I surely hope that this movie will win alot of awards this year :)



Speaking of awards, the 55th Filmfare Awards show is going to be shown on tv tonight. And guess who is hosting? It's SRK-Saif again!! Omg I simply love that jodi. This is like their 4th time hosting together, so I'd say that should account for something.



I've already seen the trailers actually. They do look quite different than the first time they appeared together, but I think they are still going to be as witty, rude, sarcastic and nonsensical as ever :D



I'm just keeping my fingers crossed that nobody wants to watch any footbal match tonight so that I can devote 5 hours of my entire life just for the 55th Filmfare Awards show.



And yes, in that tiny screen too.



So! If my previous entry was all about "hating with passion", though Mira seemed to like it haha, let's just try to be more positive this time round eh?



On Friday, I met up with Midah at IMM after 2 long weeks. We had our durian pancakes as per normal.



And we talked. And bitched. And laughed. And talked somemore.



It was so therapeutic to a certain extent, because I felt as if I had so many things that I had kept to myself for so long, that it felt so good to let it all out to someone who won't judge me and someone who understands me well.



And that made me think. Maybe somday, just for the fun of it, I might just go see a real psychologist. I'm just curious on what a real pro would say about me. Because I think I'm quite demented actually.



After the "therapy session" I came home, did alot of thinking, and now I'm less negative. I'm all for positive aura man! I don't know when this will last, but hopefully for a long run :)



Later that night, about 1:30am, Mira and I talked on the phone. Being typical us, we managed to come up with the most random of things ever to talk about. This time, it was all about Power Rangers and McDonalds and Blue's Clues and Barney and Friends, and lots more.



Questions that we came up with:

1) In Power Rangers, when they called for their MegaZords, where the hell do the robots come from?



2) Did you know that Blue is actually a female?



3) What the fuck is the original Asian yellow Ranger's name?

(Answer: Trini, credits to Mira)



Hence, on Saturday afternoon, I watched Power Rangers and Lion King with my siblings. Another therapy session that went well :)



Hopefully, it's going to be a good week.

Oh Bugger!

I'm currently waiting for my stupid brother to come home from swimming. I don't wait for that brother of mine to come home...ever! The only reason why I'm doing this is because that idiot took my shampoo to go swimming.

I can think of so many curses right now, but of course, it's not nice to curse your own brother right? Pfft.

It is so irritating! Ok, I would still be irritated if it concerns anyone else, but of course I'm slightly more irritated than usual because it's him.

Borrow my stuff. Fine, whatever. But have the bloody decency to inform me in advance. Don't make me wait here, all hot, cause I don't have my shampoo with me. Cause I don't like the fact that I'm actually waiting for you to come home now.

Cause I don't care if you come home usually anyways.

People say it's wrong to hate a sibling. But nobody knows anything, so nobody has any right to say anything.

Some people say they can forgive, but they cannot forget. Bullshit y'all. When you forgive, you forget. If you can't, means you haven't forgiven that person totally. As simple as that.

Since that's the case, it means I haven't forgiven alot of people. But that's also because some of them never really bothered to ask for forgiveness anyways. But we'll just stroll along hmm, pretend everything is sunshine and roses right?

Ahhh, so much hatred in one body. I do hate with passion.
But I do love with lots of passion as well :)

Let's end this entry on a positive note, right?

So I had my first paper today. I'm trying not to jinx anything but all I'm going to say is when I read the questions in the paper, I smiled :)

So all along I thought my second paper is on Wednesday. I've even took leave from work. But when I talked to Neetha just now, it turns out, my second paper in on Thursday! Wow.

I am selenge. Right Mira?

Don't Ask.

I need a longer attention span. Seriously man.


Taking a break every half hour isn't good at all (I think). But what to do? After half hour into reading some notes, my mind will start wandering off into work issues, friends or some random past experience.

But I'd say taking frequent breaks is better than not studying at all :D


Zimah, Hisham and I all had have tests/exams today. All the best to us! Hopefully all the hard work minus all the rojak and briyani breaks yesterday will pay off :D

And what is up with the weather man? So so so hot!! Suddenly shower 2-3 times a day isn't enough.

So...we are all psychos to some extent huh?


I've learnt to accept my friends for who they are, the psychotic parts and all. I've stop asking questions, cause I realised I rarely get answers for them anyways.

And if they can accept me for who I am, the crazy bits and all, then the least I can do is do the same for them.


True, I may not agree with some of the decisions that they made, but I try to support them nonetheless.

When they cry over the phone for something I consider minor, when they tell me about their dilemmas that I consider stupid or when they are so self-indulgent about their life, I'll still be here, listening.


Because I do the same stupid things too. And I expect them to be there for me. And if they can do that for me, then I should be there for them at any point of time in our lives.


We all function differently. We have our own obsessions, we have that one or two things that we are absolutely crazy about. Just because my obsession is different from yours, doesn't make mine any wrong.


Let's just learn to accept alright. Like I said, if your friend can do the same for you, then you should too.

Farhana, after doing some thinking, I can actually come up with 2 things that I might turn into a psycho for. But of course I'm not going to tell you la. That would spoil the drama :)

Come...Fall in Love!

So...Guess who's not at work right??
ME!!

Well, it's not like I wanted to pon, but I had stomachache and slight diarrhoea. My mum laughed when I told her that cause she thought it was funny that I declared myself sick and unfit for work just because of one trip to the toilet for you-know-what.

But to be fair, I've been to the toilet 3 times now. Also, I just have this thing about shitting in public toilets, or at other people's houses even, you know.

When you have diarrhoea, I swear the most heavenly place that there is in this world is probably in the comfort of your own toilet. Yesss :D

Enough of toilet-talk. Let's talk about romance...sorta.

Q. What does Rani do when she heard a noise at her window?
A. Go check out, and see SRK there.

Ok on Sunday, Farhana turned up, not at my doorstep, ok not at my windowsill either, haha, but outside my house near a tree, if I remembered correctly.

And she gave me the latest edition of Filmfare, with SRK and Kajol on it and asked me out to watch My Name Is Khan, in probably the most romantic way ever, with all these random Post-Its and unicorn(??). Haha I swear if she was a guy, I would have totally swooned and fallen in love with him.

But reality check, Farhana's a girl, and that's alright :)

Ok exams.
I sooo can't wait for exams to end because I have so many things I want to do but I can't do them cause a) exams!! and b) I'm broke.

I can't wait for payday next month. Well, I can never wait for paydays actually. Paydays are awesome. It makes you feel so rich :)

I want to watch movies, do my Food Fiesta and probably chill out more with babes.

Oh! And guess who's turning 29 tomorrow?? It's Shahid Kapoor baby :D If I don't have exams to study for, I might actually go out and celebrate, hehe.

Ok break time's up. Gotta hit the notes back. Toodles!!

Burn, Baby, Burn

I want to be able to sleep at 9pm like Saf, but I can't. I just simply can't bring myself to skip AI and ANTM and go to sleep, though I want to do that soooo badly!

I miss my girlfriends.
I miss chilling out my Clarke Quay.
I miss eating cheesecakes and getting lost in the pleasure.
I miss good old times.

But what to do right? We are all too busy with our own stuff. I count myself lucky if I can just meet one of you atleast once a week.

I'm probably just emo-ing abit. I think my menses is coming, hehe.
Ok too much info...

Today, after I got fed-up with work, I took a break and called Mira. As it turned out, reception in my area was pretty bad. But it is CBD area!! It's not at Jalan Kubor or something.

Ok Jalan Kubor is this lane that Midah and I saw last Sunday at Bugis.
My first reaction: Hah!!

I remembered walking from Bugis to Outram Park with Farhana before and we managed to save about $0.20 (pfft!). On last Sunday, Midah and I walked the opposite direction, ending up in Kallang.

Actually, to be fair, we were trying to walk towards Little India, but halfway through, I realised we were on a totally different direction altogether. But it's alright. It was a 30mins workout afterall :D

I'm trying to be a better daughter now. Ok, to be exact, a better "anak dara". Omg Malays and their "anak dara". What is wrong with an anak dara waking up at 12pm??

Apparently, anak daras don't do that.
Well, I do that. And I'm not the only one. Deal with it!

But yeah, try saying that to your parents. You'll be happy if you just get a tight slap on your face.

So!! No more waking up at 12pm on Saturdays. I hope we can compromise and agree on 10am, because anything earlier than that is going to be bitch. Bitch, I say!!

Life is becoming a routine now. Sometimes it can be quite boring. But what to do right?
I don't care about you anymore. But like what Mira said, there's always a little emotion in "I don't care". Ok...of course I care! But I can't bother about that right? Afterall, you are leaving in a week's time. My burung kakak tua is leaving. Omg, that doesn't even sound romantic at all, Julie :(

Just Serenade Me, Honey

I just don't want February to end for reasons better left unspoken of. I might as well start counting the days to the end of February :(

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you please don't go, and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a Love Story, baby just say yes

Aaahhh, I'm citing Taylor Swift. Now that's not a good sign.

To all those going to KL, Terengganu or wherever, have a safe journey. Happy holidays :)

My holidays...Gosh, I have so many Hindi movies DVDs with me right now that I want to watch. Gotta find time somehow, gotta find time :)

This just can't be summerlove, you'll see :)