Thinking Of You - Katy Perry |HQ|

This song is currently on repeat mode though it makes me sad everytime i listen to it.


That being said, I'm loving those heels man!!

Thinking of you

I've always blamed it on the circumstances. When things change, we change too right? Because we have to adapt to the changes around us.

But now I realised that it wasn't the circumstances. It wasn't you either.

It was just me. While you were there, hanging on, waiting for me, I ran away.

Far, far away.



But maybe, after 2 years now, it's worth another shot.



~



Yesterday, while cleaning my room, I found my collection box where I put in letters, cards, photos and stickers even that I've received from other people.



I think alot of people have their own collection of items. But what kept me thinking is whether I'm part of their collections, just as much as they are a part of mine?



But on a more practical note, I need to go to Daiso very soon to get a big box cause currently I have 3 small boxes of items lying around in different areas in the room.

Milk and cookies, anyone??

Mira is right. Baking is addictive.

After baking cupcakes 2 times last week, Zimah and I baked peanut butter cookies for the very first time today (under our mother's direct supervision, of course!). They turned out alright, I'd say. Actually, I think "alright" would be an understatement, hehe.

But honestly speaking, besides those decent-looking ones above, there were a few that had to be thrown away, thanks to me, unfortunately. I insisted to my mother that I could multi-task - take care of the baking cookies and watch Jhoom Barabar Jhoom at the same time. Apparently, as it turned out, I can't.

So, sadly enough, those cookies turned out all black and burnt when my mother took them out of the oven. And where was I at that point of time? Still in the living room, laughing at Abhishek on tv. He was seriously funny in that movie man!!

Obviously, I didn't take any photos of those distorted-looking cookies. I would want nice and pleasant memories of my first few baking tries. Black and burnt cookies, is definitely not on the list.

Happy Me

Hello, this is me! I'm very proud of myself today. Wanna know why?

That is because today, I managed to control myself from killing an irritating colleague.

How was your day?

FYI, I'm Attached

Someday last week, I came across a newspaper clipping at work. It was about the Thailand soccer team and there was a hot Thai guy in the picture as well. I didn't see his jersey number but I just assumed that's my Mr 53 Hot Stuff. And if it's not him, then that's awesomer man, cause that just means there are 2 hot guys in the Thai team!


So when my father came home that night, this was what happened:


(the translated version)
Me: Dad, I've got something to show you!! It's a picture of my boyfriend!! (With lots of excitement btw, in case you can't sense it.)

Hisham: Really? I want to see!! (Excited as well, though at that time I couldn't understand why.)

Me: Okayyy... Anyway, here he is. That's the Number 53 Thai guy!! (Showing my father and brother the newspaper clipping.)

Hisham: Ohhh...I thought you meant like a REAL boyfriend. Chey!! (Went off to continue to watch a soccer match on tv.)


And by now, I have totally forgotten what my father's response to all this cause I was just stumped with what Hisham said. Did he actually think I was going to announce my new boyfriend like that? Running from my room to the living room with a photo of him in my hand? Wow!


But just for the fun of it, maybe I should try that someday. You won't know till you try, right?


Oh and I couldn't call him Mr 53 Hot Stuff in the house. My father will flip if I use such language in his living room. Apparently ladies don't speak like that. Pfft.

Ajab Prem Ki Ghazab Kahani - Prem Ki Naiya

I love the first 29 seconds.


I'm really trying not to sound mushy here, but I swear there's something different about him. I still can't figure out what exactly, and I may never be able to maybe, but there is something.


Is it his facial expressions? Is it because he's just charming? Is it because he's a great mover? I don't know, maybe all 3.


One thing's for sure, though - he's going to be big. And by big, I meant a big superstar, because Zimah though I meant literally, since the whole Kapoor family are all big-szized, hmph.


If not for some of the unnecessary parts towards the end, I may actually consider watching this movie again in the cinema.

You sweet thing

I don't bake. I don't know why, I just don't. Maybe because I'm a girl and I'm expected to know how to, or maybe simply because I just don't bother.


I sorta have baked stuff before at work. I called it "sorta" because we don't need to make the brownies and cookies from scratch. We just take out the ready-made batter and put it in the oven. As simple as that, ANYONE can bake brownies and cookies at B&J.


But today, Zimah and I baked cupcakes. And yes, from scratch. I even went to Giant to buy the ingredients that my mum didn't have in her kitchen.


To be fair, for all that I did today, I must credit Zimah because she was the one who initiated the whole idea. And she almost literally dragged me to Giant to get the ingredients. And to the mother too, of course. She supported us throughout the whole thing, though I think she was actually there to make sure that us girls didn't mess up her kitchen, yeah that's more likely.


But oh wells! I'm pretty proud of Zimah and I nonetheless. Zimah suggested that we bake donuts next week. Zimah's done with school for the year, so that explains her enthusiasm. I'm just hoping that I can keep up with her man!


Till then, cupcakes anyone?


Oh, photos of the cupcakes that we made are below. They don't look very pretty like those in the cupcake shops, but they were atleast edible and yummy. And for now, I'm happy with just that.

Support Local Talent

I am not a fan of local talent and will probably stay that way forever. That's why when my father told me last week that there was going to be a soccer match between Singapore and Thailand, I accidentally blurted out, "Confirm Thailand menang punye!"


Which they did eventually actually, but that's not the point. My father wasn't very happy when I said that and he started blabbering that with people like me who don't support local talent, how will they grow? To which I really wanted to retort, "What talent?" but decided against it cause that argument could have gone all night.


I said I'm not a fan. That doesn't mean I don't support. I watch Singapore Idol religiously every week and I consider that as support. I know alot of people who don't watch. And hello! I voted 3 times during the finals of the first season and I strongly believe that because of those 3 IMPORTANT votes, Taufik Batisah was crowned as the first Singapore Idol, thank you very much.


So moving back to that soccer match, I ended up watching it with Zimah and Hisham because frankly speaking, there was nothing else on tv. But see, I could have gone online or read a book! But no, I decided to SUPPORT our local talent and spent (wasted, more like it) 90 mins of my life watching 22 (I think?) boys kicking and passing and catching balls. Fun, eh?


Fine, sarcasm aside, I actually enjoyed watching that match, and that is coming from me, Ms Shimah who knows nothing about soccer! That says something, I'd say. And it helps ALOT that there was a cute Thai guy playing as well. I don't know his name but his jersey number is 53. Don't judge me, I'm sure alot of girls who are supposedly soccer fans are more interested in the "good-looking" guys than the match itself anyways.


FYI, the score of the match was 3-1. My father came home late and only managed to catch the last 30 mins of the match. He was so disappointed cause the score was 2-0 at that time and a few mins after, it became 3-0. After that goal, my father exclaimed, "Alah, buat malu la Singapore!" grabbed his bag and went to shower.


While he was in the shower, Singapore scored that one (pathetic) goal, to which my father obviously missed. Yup, so much for supporting local talent!

Yikes!

While doing a resume earlier today, I had to finish this Personality Test as well.

Here are the results:


At a Glance

• Takes time over tasks, sees deadlines as flexible (Yep!)
• Expresses emotions and needs attention. Tends to be concerned with own opinions and feelings. (Haha yep!)
• Faithful, trustworthy and devoted in long-term relationships.
• Sees people as nice and friendly, not comfortable to wheel and deal.
• Practical, prefers to build on idea rather that generate them. (Lazy la.)
• Needs clear and thorough instructions, slow to act when uncertain. (Haha true!)

While at Work

Ms Shimah is prepared to put in hard work moderately but she may at times prefer to work at her own pace. (Slow and steady man.)

Time is not a major priority for Ms Shimah. She is probably often late for appointents and may keep people waiting. She see deadlines as flexible and takes her time to do things. She is not time-conscious when planning or organising activities. Ms Shimah may feel stressed and demotivated when she is rushed, and may not deliver results on time. (Ok everyone knows this already.)

Ms Shimah is an emotional person. She finds it difficult to conceal her feelings. She is likely to seek attention from others. Ms Shimah is passionate, romantic and warm, and needs to be with people. As her emotional needs are high, she is often the "taker" in a relationship. She tends to make decisions based on her own feelings and opinions. (The "taker"? Wow.)

Although Ms Shimah is usually a sympathetic person, she may at times be selective about being involved in the personal problems of people.

Ms Shimah is friendly and outgoing when she is with friends although she may at times prefer to be quiet. (True, though people usually think I'm emo-ing then, pfft.)

Ms Shimah is the sort of person who forms long term bonds and attachments. She is faithful, trustworthy, and devoted in such relationships. She tends to be trusting, dedicated and protective towards those she loves. Patriotism and sense of duty is a significant aspect of her character.

Ms Shimah is moderately serious about her responsibilites and selectively takes ownership of her work.

Ms Shimah is moderately concerned with prestige, rank and reputation.

Ms Shimah sees people as friends, reliable and honest. She is trusting and believes what people say. She tends to be unsuspecting of people's behaviour and motives. (Ok not true, cause I wasn't totally honest when answering this part, haha!)

Ms Shimah's leadership qualities are moderate and she is sometimes able to get the support of people.

Intellectual matters do not interest Ms Shimah. She is more concerned with practical issues that abstract theories. Ms Shimah prefers to talk about useful and workable solutions than discuss hypotheses and concepts. She is more likely to build on ideas rather than generate them. (Gosh, so true, sigh.)

Ms Shimah puts in effort to plan ahead some of the times. She may at times not be as detailed in her planning.

Ms Shimah is generally able to express herself although not to a high degree of eloquence. (What!!)

Being one who needs clear and thorough instructions before she can proceed on action, Ms Shimah resists when conditions are uncertain. (I sound like a Patrick here, pfft.) She does not adapt easily to changes. Before she embarks on a new project, expect Ms Shimah to find out more and probe deeply. (Who wouldn't?)

According to the site, the point of doing this test is so that I can work on my weaknesses. Right, like I would do anything about them.

But if any potential employer ever see this, I am never getting a job man! That's why I didn't send this together with my resume. Frankly, I wouldn't even hire myself. I'm such a slacker sometimes. But, well, when I am in the mood I will definitely get the job done...I think?

It's not so easy loving me

Sometimes I can be really generous, sometimes I can be plain selfish. I won't care about you or your feelings, and everything is just about me. Me, myself and I. My happiness comes first, and I don't intend to sacrifice that for anything or anyone.


Certain stuff just makes me selfish, I guess. I choose to believe I'm not like that most of the time (you may choose to differ), but I can't help being selfish sometimes.


I guess, when it concerns things that are important to me, I would want the best. Who doesn't? And when this happens, I don't care about other people's feelings, I don't care about promises made earlier on. I'm just insistent I want things done my way, and nothing else is allowed.


I love my friends, of course I do. But that doesn't mean I'm supposed to make exceptions when it concerns them right?


I would want to say "I'm sorry". But that's the thing, I'm not sorry at all. People say sorry all the time; when they are late, when they cancel on someone, etc... but why say sorry, when what you've done earlier was on purpose?


But see, people expect you to be sorry, cause that's the right thing to do. And that's where I don't fit in, cause I do stuff sometimes, knowing they are not right, and I don't give a hoot. But see, that's just me, everybody else seems just fine.


I wish my selfishness doesn't have to cause pain for anyone. But if it does, then I'm sorry. Not because of what I did to you, but because this hurts you. Does this even make sense? I wouldn't want to do it if I had a choice, but see everything we do, we actually have a choice. And I choose to hurt you so that I can be happy.


Ok now that I've put it that way, my sorry isn't going to make a difference anyways.


We accept our loved ones for all the quirks that come along with them. I'm selfish, and the least you can do is accept it, I guess.


To long-lasting friendship...what say?

Koi Ladki Hai English Subtitles

It all started when Zimah and I were on our way home from IMM (oh Mira, we bought nonsense at Daiso again, your fault la, haha) when it started to rain. I asked Zimah whether she wanted to take the bus instead, but she didn't mind getting wet today (probably because we had no one to answer to when we got home all wet since our parents were not in town).


So, walking in the rain always reminds me of Bollywood and Zimah pointed out this song specifically, which we know as the "Chak Dum Dum" song. We didn't break out into a dance and there was nobody else to join us as background dancers, so yep, just the 2 of us, in the rain, walking home.


While walking home, Zimah told me that she didn't know what Dil To Pagal Hai is about. I was appalled! How can you be my sister when you don't know what's DTPH is about? Ok fine, drama aside, I then told her the story. So now Zimah probably believes that there is someone out there made just for her.


Ok shit, not true, that's not Zimah.
That's me.

If You Smiling, That Should Set The Tone

On Monday, I finally went to Gramophone with Nan and got my JT FutureSex/LoveSounds concert dvd! There are 2 cds inside, one for the whole concert and the other is a bonus cd. I was too tired to watch on Monday, but I finished watching the whole thing on Tuesday. Took me a couple of hours, but it was probably the best couple of hours spent ever.


My mother thought JT looked like Kris Allen. I told her she needs to get her eyesight checked.
My father said there's nothing special about JT. Apparently he strongly believes that he's better looking and a far better singer than JT. Puiii!
My sister tried to sing all the high notes to irritate me and kept calling him "Botak Head".


I have such a supportive family.


~


Duane finally got his big fat ass of SI yesterday! Dammit, best SI episode ever man. I really truly hope that the girls will not get eliminated any time soon cause a) I'm a feminist, and b) the boys suck la dey!


Ok actually, Sezairi isn't so bad. He's quite original though I wasn't all that blown away by his What Goes Around performance yesterday. You think you can pull off a JT song? Think again, dude.


I hope top 3 will be Tabitha, Sylvia and Sezairi. If top 3 consists of any other nonsense (say Charles and Faizal), I will be terribly embarrased to call myself a Singaporean. Sucks.

We Only Got 86 400 Seconds In A Day

So true. I need some reflection to do now, boo.

Life Is Short: Eat Pudding First

FYI, this is going to be a long entry.

So, whenever someone asks me out, I will make sure that I have a purpose to do out there before I decide to go out with that person. Sometimes I don't even want to go out just to have a meal with someone. Come on, why should I go out when I have food at home, and more importantly, when it's free?

Once in awhile, I do make some exceptions. Cause either a) food at home sucks, b) I need a break from home, c) I haven't met you in a long time, or d) you sound as if you need someone desperately.

On Wednesday, I met up with Mira and I think the reason would be (c).

I was an hour late, and finally met up with her at 3pm at JE library. And I managed to borrow 2 books! I was so happy because I haven't read a book in a really long time. And I think the books that I borrowed are going to be awesome though both of them are about a mother-child relationship.

And for the record, I'm not pregnant Mira. I just like love themes. Well, there was a point of time in my life where I would reach for any Mary Higgins Clark or Sidney Sheldon book cause I was such a thriller fan then. I especially loved it when I guessed the murderer correctly from the start.

I remembered once, I even called Mira at night cause I was so excited with how the story was unfolding and when I finally got the murderer right.

But that's the thing about thriller books! After you read enough books, you can start guessing from the beginning who the murderer might be. They are always the most unlikely person, cause if it was that obvious, then what's so exciting when the murderer finally got revealed in the end right?

Like in the book that I just described, the murderer was the lady living next door who was so nice to the main character throughout the story. Typical. Pfft.

Ok, I digressed alot! After we borrowed books, we had lunch at LJS. That reminds me, I want to go there again for that Grilled Chicken Wrap. Mmm!

After that, we went Daiso. For no particular reason actually, cause Mira just wanted to get all sorts of junkies then. And I decided to join in with her. I usually don't buy stuff that I don't need, but it was Daiso, everything was $2!

So I bought a colouring book, colour pencils and a folding fan. Do I need any of them? No, of course not. But the pleasure that I got from buying them was simply amazing. I don't even know why I felt good after that (maybe because I only spent $6).

Maybe because colouring reminds me of childhood, and sometimes I just want to be a child again. It was so much simpler then. Why do I need a folding fan? Ok, to be fair, it was a cute one, with a photo of jellybeans on it. And I'm smiling right now, just thinking about it.

Lastly, we went to Popular after that and I bought this really really adorable notebook which cost $9.90, yikes! Any normal day, and usually the normal me won't buy that book cause I don't know what I'm going to use it for. But I bought it nonetheless cause there was only 1 left and it was calling out to me, "Buy me, Shimah, buy me!".

Ok, I think I might use it for school, though I'm not so sure about that. Or maybe I bought it just to keep and stare at it cause it's so pretty! Hmm, I don't know.

Maybe sometimes we don't need to catch a movie. Maybe sometimes we don't have to have our day all planned out. Maybe sometimes we can just have a Cornetto ice-cream in the rain. Or play hop-scotch even (there's one under my grandmother's voiddeck btw!).

I don't know what's becoming of me these few days. I'm listening to slow songs, I even changed my JT ringtone to something that I think won't be able to wake me up if I was sleeping. And I'm reading love stories, and not forgetting I colour my new colouring book when I'm free.

Simple pleasures have become so much more significant.

With that, let's just live it people.

Ladki Bani Anjani Hai

I want to watch this movie again!!

Oh time, hold still, stop, wait

It has been raining for the past couple of days and I'm loving it! I know, this makes me sound like a lazybum who doesn't like to go out but instead likes to stay in and chill (not literally, of course), but what else can I say, I am like that!


Today, it rained again in the late afternoon. So I was lying down on the bed, and the radio kept playing SRK's songs non-stop and then I remembered that it's his birthday today. Ahh, bliss.

So what did I do today? Slacked on the bed, listened to SRK's songs while it was raining outside. I'd say that's really romantic, wouldn't you? The only thing missing was me imagining him in my room, singing, "Ho gaya hai tujhko to pyar sajna".


I know the photo and the song are from 2 different movies, but I like his hair better in KKHH la. Atleast it looked washed unlike his hair in DDLJ.


Before my entry sounds like (a freaked) someone's else's blog entry on MJ, I'll end here.
Happy 44th Birthday SRK! Make more great movies :)